When women are present . . . things change

I am a Woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal Woman,
that’s me.
– Maya Angelou, American poet, memoirist, actress, and American Civil Rights Movement activist

Eight of the nine women filmmakers at the San Francisco premiere of Lunafest.

Eight of the nine women filmmakers and one of the women who was featured in one of the films at the San Francisco premiere of Lunafest.

Last Thursday evening was the World Premiere of the Lunafest film festival in San Francisco. This year the Lunafest East Bay Organizing  Committee – this is my first year on the committee – was honored along with other organizations and individuals for their work in raising money for local nonprofits and for the Breast Cancer Fund, which is a beneficiary of Lunafest. On Wednesday I’ll blog about the nine short films that were chosen out of more than 900 films that were submitted for consideration, as well as the wonderful words of Jeanne Rizzo, RN, President and CEO of the Breast Cancer Fund. But in today’s blog I want to share the inspirational message of special guest, Dr. Stacy L. Smith.

Dr. Stacy Smith, associate professor at USC (photo by USC).

Dr. Stacy Smith, associate professor at USC (photo by USC).

First of all, a little more on Lunafest, a film festival by, for, and about women dedicated to building community through the power of film and through the power of the story:  The film festival was established in 2000 by LUNA, the makers of the Whole Nutrition Bar for Women, to “simultaneously promote women filmmakers, raise awareness for women’s issues, and support women’s nonprofit organizations throughout the U.S. and Canada.” The mission of Lunafest is to “celebrate and inspire women through the art of film and community fundraising.”

Second choice outfit for Lunafest: bright stripes in October.

Second choice outfit for Lunafest: bright stripes in October.

Dr. Stacy L. Smith is an Associate Professor and the Director of the Media, Diversity, and Social Change Initiative at the University of Southern California’s Annenberg School for Communication and Journalism. Her work “examines gender and race on-screen and behind the camera in cinematic content as well as barriers and opportunities facing woman and people of color in the entertainment industry.” She has authored numerous articles, reports, chapters, and papers, focusing on gender, race, hypersexualization of girls and women, and violence.

In her talk, Dr. Smith discussed studies she had done on speaking characters – defined as having at least one speaking line – in 100 of the top-grossing films per year. Data on characters were broken down by demographics, physical appearance, and occupation of the character. In 500 films, of the 21,000 characters, 71.6 percent were men and 28.4 percent were women. It should come as no surprise to many of us; however, when you consider that half of the U.S. population is women and nearly half of the workforce at 47 percent is women, it’s a disturbing to say the least. Dr. Smith noted that there has been no change in gender prevalence since 1976: Of 55 films from 1976 to 1990, only 28 percent were women; of 400 films from 1990 to 2006, only 27 percent were women; and of 500 films from 2007 to 2012, only 28 percent were women.

Anthropologie earrings and Tiffany ring and bracelet, my 50th birthday presents from David.

Anthropologie earrings and Tiffany ring and bracelet, my 50th birthday presents from David.

Dr. Smith also looked at the hypersexualization of male and female on-screen characters. Only 9.4 percent of men were partially nude, while 31 percent of women were shown on screen partially nude. Nearly 50 percent of women were identified as thin, while only 16.2 percent of male characters were thin. Dr. Smith posed this question to the audience: What is the solution to this representational crisis? Women! “When women are present, things change,” she declared.

Dr. Smith examined three major places in which the presence of women in certain positions made a difference. She looked at 820 films from 2002 to 2012 and found three areas of change. In the area of production, when men are directors, only 28 percent of key positions on the team were women. However, when the directors were female in indie films, the number of females in key positions rose to 44 percent. Second, when females directed, there were more girls/women on-screen but less sexualization. Finally, when females directed, the percent of on-screen characters for girls and women rose to 61.7 percent, with more stories about female competition and athleticism.

“The presence of females can alter the status quo in women being silenced and sexualized,” Dr. Smith emphasized. She pointed out that Lunafest, which is shown in 150 cities and raises resources for local nonprofits, is the perfect platform to drive change to the status quo. “It’s the story of all of us, and it can affect the landscape of humanity,” she said. “When women are present, things change.” Dr. Smith encouraged us all to promote change locally, nationally, and globally. Check.

Outfit close-up.

Outfit close-up.

Taking a deep breath

Sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is the rest we take between two breaths.
– Etty Hillesum, young Dutch Jewish woman who died at Auschwitz and whose letters and diaries from 1941-1943 during the German occupation in Amsterdam was published posthumously in 1981.

Last week, when I was on business travel, I averaged about four hours of sleep a night. Time zone change, work, and other worries impacted my body clock. The upside was that I was very productive. One week later and my sleep pattern has not changed. I have a number of deadlines to meet and not enough time to meet them. I have issues at my daughter’s school – more on that in a later blog post – and under duress, I succumbed to Hot Tamales and Kettle Spicy Jalapeno potato chips.

Take a deep breath in a flowy outfit.

Take a deep breath in a flowing outfit.

My sciatica returned, as it always does when I’m stressed and under deadline, which usually means I can’t afford to take time away from work to go to my acupuncturist. Four applications of my trusty homemade rice sock, which is the original one that we made for when I was in labor with my now 13-year-old son, did the trick – and without missing a second of work.

Vintage inspired: Abacus earrings (Portland ME), End of Century cicada ring (NYC), Lava 9 pin and bracelet (Berkeley, CA).

Vintage inspired: Abacus earrings (Portland ME), End of Century cicada ring (NYC), Lava 9 pin and bracelet (Berkeley, CA).

I have multi-tasked as much as I could this week, pacing myself for the countdown next week. This evening, as I tried to catch my breath – my seasonal asthma seemed to have kicked in this week, too – I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Everything will be okay. This, too, shall pass. There are clearly worse things to be stressed about. The flames in my hair died down without dousing it with water. Another deep breath. Baba Ram Dass says that the quieter you become, the more you can hear. Another deep breath. I will meet my deadlines. I will return to peaceful sleep. And I will resolve my daughter’s school issues once and for all. Deep breath.

Navy and cream lace with dusty green pleats.

Navy and cream lace with dusty green pleats.

TGIF. Deep breath. Happy Friday to all!

TGIF, indeed!

TGIF, indeed!

October is Filipino American History Month, and another excerpt

A person who does not look back to where he came from would not be able to reach his destination (English translation of Ang hindi lumingon sa pinanggalingan ay hindi makarating sa paroroonan.)
– Dr. Jose P. Rizal, Filipino revolutionary and national hero

Larry Itliong, circa 1960s.

Larry Itliong, circa 1960s.

This year’s theme of Filipino American History Month is “Hands That Built America: Filipino Americans in the Labor Movement.” It’s appropriate that October was the chosen month for this designation, as October 25th is Larry Itliong’s birthday, and this year is special because it is Itliong’s 100th birthday. Itliong was a Filipino American labor organizer who led the Filipino grape pickers out of the vineyards on September 8, 1965, in what was the beginning of the Great Delano Grape Strikes, which lasted into the 1970s.

My literary uniform: t-shirt, fitted jacket, jeans, and pumps.

My literary uniform: t-shirt, fitted jacket, jeans, and pumps.

In doing light research on Filipino American History Month, I came across the phrase, “No history, no self. Know history, know self,” which, according to a few sources I traced, is a very loose interpretation of Dr. Rizal’s quote from above. The phrase is particularly poignant for The Philippines, given its centuries of colonial status under Spain and then the United States. It’s a reminder of the importance of understanding all aspects of our heritage – the true culture, bondage, revolution, and finding oneself all over again, as painful as that is.

In terms of Filipino American history in this country, in the last century-plus, more people need to know about the contributions of Filipino labor leaders and the many workers who brought food to America’s tables. Tying in both aspects of Filipino American History, I present another excerpt from my novel-in-progress, from Chapter 2. My protagonist, Fausto Empleo, is a boy in his hometown of San Esteban who dreams beyond the ricefields of his family’s legacy:

Grayling earrings (Jenny K, El Cerrito, CA), Wyler's necklace (Portland, ME), and Sundance rings and In God We Trust band (NYC).

Grayling earrings (Jenny K, El Cerrito, CA), Wyler’s necklace (Portland, ME), and Sundance rings and In God We Trust band (NYC).

Ever since Fausto’s father, Emiliano, began taking him to the ricefields to plant and harvest at the age of five—the same age his father and grandfather had begun to work—Fausto knew he would not follow in their footsteps. He would not get up before the sun rose and ride the carabao to the ricefields for the rest of his life. He would not harvest maguey and strip, wash, cure, and braid its fibers into rope and then haggle with agents over how many pesos could be paid for several kilos of maguey. Somehow, he would find a way to attend the American school in San Esteban. His uncles had allowed his older cousins, Macario, Caridad, Serapio, and Domingo, to go to school but only when they weren’t needed in the fields. They fell back a few grades until Uncle Johnny, Macario’s father, forced his son to quit for good, and Fausto’s other cousins quit soon after. Fausto would not quit. But first he had to find a way to get into school.

He couldn’t hang around the schoolhouse after classes to catch the American teacher’s attention because he came home from the fields after sundown, long after Miss Arnold had closed up the wooden building. He knew one student’s mother cleaned the schoolhouse on Saturdays. Fausto convinced his grandmother, his lelang, to stop by the schoolhouse on their way to the marketplace one Saturday morning and talked his way into cleaning the floors for five centavos. The musty odor gave him a coughing fit, but he rubbed the floors with petroleum-soaked banana leaves until the wood gleamed like the bow on Miss Arnold’s hat. His lelang agreed to keep his job a secret; Fausto told her he wanted to replace their sickly farm animals with the money he was making. He secretly hoped Miss Arnold would show up while he was working, but she never came.

No matter. When he finished polishing the floor, he opened up books stuffed on shelves that spanned the length of the room. He cut his fingertips along the edge of the pages, but he minded them less than the calluses on his palms. He copied the curves and lines from the books across the slate board, and stood back to admire his work for a few moments before quickly erasing it clean, all trace of chalk gone. He stared at the colorful pictures tacked on the walls, until his lelang returned, scolding him that his secret would be found out. The following week, he asked one of the girls from town who was attending school to help him write a sign. The next Saturday, he left it at the entrance of the schoolhouse: “Floor cleaned by Fausto Empleo.”

By the third Saturday, when nothing had happened, he realized he would have to introduce himself to Miss Arnold, without his mother and his lelang‘s knowledge, at St. Stephen’s, where the teacher and his family both worshipped. After mass he spied Miss Arnold greeting members of the congregation. The men craned their necks—she towered above them with a head piled high with brown hair—and saluted. “Good morning, Miss Arnold!” they said in lively voices. The women bowed and addressed her as la maestra. She strode across the gravel walkway, her big feet marching in dusty brown boots. It was a warm day and yet she wore a brown wool suit with a white blouse that covered her neck, a long-sleeved jacket, and a stiff skirt that puffed out. As she came closer, he saw the wrinkles in her sun-burnt face. Gray hairs poked out along her hairline like fine wire.

She would have walked by him if he hadn’t stepped into her path. “Miss Arnold, are your floors clean enough?” He shifted his feet, his toes curled in shoes that didn’t fit.

She studied his face for a moment before saying in a bright voice, “You must be Fausto Empleo! I see you leave your signature, like an artist.” She took Fausto’s hand and shook it vigorously. She didn’t seem to notice his calluses. Her own hands, as big as a man’s, were covered with brown blotches.

“You look to be about seven years old, ready for school. Why are you cleaning my floor and not attending my class?” She bent down, her eyes level with his. She slid her glasses to the tip of her long nose. Her eyes were as clear as the sea off of San Esteban on a cloudless day.

He couldn’t stop staring. How could eyes that blue not see clearly? How could they not be dulled with age?

“I have to help my pa with our land.” He stole a glance past Miss Arnold. Father Miguel, in his starched white cassock, was greeting his mother and lelang. “My pa says I’m a good worker in the fields.”

“Oh, dear.” Miss Arnold held her cheek as if she had a toothache. “I’m sure you are a good worker, but you need to go to school! We teach industrial skills, not just reading and writing. The whole world is changing. You must realize we are living in a time of great progress. You can’t be left behind. School is for everybody.”

Fausto’s head swam. While even the laborers were teaching themselves English—American and English-speaking businessmen flooded the islands since the Spaniards had been driven out—what he knew was not enough. “I know about school,” he said, looking past the yellow-flowered gumamela bushes and acacia trees, in the direction of the schoolhouse. “After I clean the floors, I look at the books and the pictures on the walls,” he said, then cocked his head to one side. “But if you want to teach reading in English, you need books that have more words than pictures. We like to work hard.”

Miss Arnold pursed her lips, holding back a smile. Tiny wrinkles branched out around her mouth. “I will consider your practical suggestion, Fausto. Your work ethic will serve you well in school, and you would be a big help to me in the classroom. I strongly suggest you come to my class.” She sat on her haunches before him, her blue skirt billowing out and sweeping the ground. “A poet wrote about the difficult journey we Philippine teachers have had to undertake. The end of the poem says: ‘And let no petty doubts becloud your brain;/Remember, while you try to do your parts,/That, if one single spark of light you leave/Behind, your work will not have been in vain.'” She broke out grinning. “Fausto Empleo, you already exhibit a spark of light, but you can be more if you come to school. How exciting and rewarding that would be for you, your parents, and me—to be more!”

She promised to come to his house to request permission for him to join her classroom. After she left, he caught sight of his mother walking homeward, his baby brother joined at her hip, his sisters skipping behind her, his lelang trailing, eyeing him. Nearby, the town presidente‘s daughters greeted their American teacher with curtsies. The two girls, dressed in striped pandilings and kamisas as pale as their faces, were waiting for their calesa, which had pulled into the courtyard. The driver, a dark-skinned man, hoisted the girls to their seats. He sat in front and snapped his whip against the white horse’s flank. Fausto’s sisters called after him, and he ran to catch up, wincing in his shoes. He looked back as the glazed yellow wheels spun in circles and the red-painted calesa lurched forward, dipping in and out of the ruts beyond the arched entryway. It soon passed him and his family on the road, although he broke out into a lively gait, imagining he could outrun the horse.

Stripes and flames, tan and black.

Stripes and flames, tan and black.

100213 Filipino 4

Book spine haiku, Volume 5

a strange flower
for birds and butterflies
the autumn sky
– Matsuo Basho, Japanese poet of the Edo period

We leave September now, which was National Literacy Month, to enter the month of October and welcome back another edition of Book spine haiku, Volume 5. Volume 4 made its appearance in June. It’s amazing how time flies. Presenting two book spine haikus by my friend Laurel Kallenbach and two by me. Enjoy!

And if you have any to contribute for future volumes, send them to me via The Dress at 50’s Facebook page (since my commenting tool is still disabled).

Laurel's literary contribution.

Laurel’s literary contribution.

Interesting tidbit: I went to school with Dan Chaon at Syracuse.

Interesting tidbit: I went to school with Dan Chaon at Syracuse.

A haiku for two poets by yours truly.

A haiku for two poets by yours truly.

Wearing short sleeves and sandals until the temps drop.

Wearing short sleeves and sandals until the temps drop.

Black accessories pop against a green T-shirt.

Black accessories pop against a green T-shirt.

Green and black for fall with black accessories: MOMA ring (NYC), Carmela Rose earrings, and Batucada eco-friendly plastic necklace (Lava 9, Berkeley, CA).

Green and black for fall with black accessories: MOMA ring (NYC), Carmela Rose earrings, and Batucada eco-friendly plastic necklace (Lava 9, Berkeley, CA).

The last day of September and the waning days of our Indian summer.

The last day of September and the waning days of our Indian summer.

Katy Butler: Knocking on Heaven’s Door

Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak knits up the o-er wrought heart and bids it break.
– William Shakespeare, English poet and playwright, from Macbeth

Katy Butler at the Hillside Club.

Katy Butler at the Hillside Club.

This past Thursday, my friend Jane and I attended another Berkeley Arts & Letters event at the Hillside Club (2286 Cedar Street, Berkeley, 510.848.3227). Knocking On Heaven’s Door: The Path to a Better Way of Death, is a memoir by narrative journalist Katy Butler chronicling the deaths of her father and mother – one who died too late and the other who died too soon, respectively, according to Butler. An article she wrote in 2010, which was published in the New York Times Magazine, “What Broke My Father’s Heart,” became the opening of her exquisitely written book. The Wall Street Journal ran an excerpt about her mother in its pages on September 6th.

A Braided narrative structure
Having lost my father on Christmas night 1995 and my mother on January 3rd, 2012, I was interested in hearing Butler talk about losing her parents in very different ways. Being involved in the healthcare industry, I was equally interested in her discussion of how the medical world views the elderly and end-of-life issues. What I didn’t expect, and which was a pleasant, serendipitous surprise – because I’m neck-deep in the final revision of my novel – was learning about narrative structure.

Responding to audience questions.

Responding to audience questions.

Deirdre English, who teaches at the UC Berkeley Graduate School of Journalism and is a former editor-in-chief of Mother Jones, was the guest interviewer who happened to be an undergraduate college roommate of Butler’s for a brief time when they were at Wesleyan University in Middletown, CT. Knowing the premise, English brought up being intrigued by how Butler would approach the narrative structure. Butler admitted that she didn’t want to write a depressing story of her parents’ deaths, which she described as a downward staircase narrative. That story, she explained, “was only part of the truth.” The other narratives, which she braided in and which created upward staircase narratives, included her transformative relationship with her mother and her growth as a human being. She referenced Greek mythology and the seven basic plots, of which overcoming the monster constituted one of her braided narratives.

Setting the caregivers free
Despite the help of a home caregiver, Butler’s mother was the primary caregiver for her father, who had suffered a stroke at age 79 and declined in the next 10 years, the last five and a half years of which were artificially prolonged by a pacemaker. If you read the NYT Magazine piece, you’ll bear witness to the agony Butler and her mother endured during those difficult years and when it came time to make difficult decisions that would essentially set them all free. Butler talked about the opportunity in this spiritual ordeal of taking care of a parent’s death. Ten years of caregiving can break people, but Butler says it is also an opportunity to grow. When the body can no longer be healed, the spirit can be healed.

Set for a book event in Berkeley.

Set for a book event in Berkeley.

Her mother kept a journal at the advice of a hospice worker, and while it would be painful to read soon after her passing (during my mother’s six weeks in the ICU and the acute-care facility, I kept copies of my detailed e-mails to my husband and close friends; I have yet to read them because I know I will be thrust back into those very sad, very terrifying moments in time and I’m still not ready to go there), her words served as a release for her mother and are also an invaluable historical and emotional record for Butler.

In her memoir, Butler discusses the faults in the medical profession regarding end-of-life issues and in our world view of the elderly – how we need to move away from saving lives at all costs to alleviating suffering. In addition to this paradigm shift, patients and caregivers also need to educate themselves about what they want and what their options and rights are. For example, a year after her father’s stroke, the implantation of his pacemaker as a prerequisite to surgery for his hernia created more health risks and issues and also prolonged his life when “he was already suffering and not happy,” Butler said. The 10-year lifespan of the pacemaker battery meant that no matter what was happening to the rest of his organs, no matter the deterioration, his heart would keep ticking, his pacemaker would keep him alive. Butler believes we need to know all the pros and cons, and just as important, the alternatives to any medical intervention, especially in our older years.

Q&A: Stories of heartbreak and wonder
In the Q&A session, several people in the audience spoke up about their caregiving experiences as sons or daughters. There were a couple of women who work in the hospice industry, and they also go through these difficult journeys with many people’s mothers and fathers. One story that was particularly poignant was a woman who worked in hospice and represents Compassion & Choices, a nonprofit organization in the U.S. that advocates for patients’ rights and end-of-life choices. She worked for years with adults and spent the last five years working with dying children, who she says were “fantastic teachers.” These children asked a very important question to the hospice workers – and not their parents because they knew it was too difficult a question and too close for their parents – and that question was: “Does it hurt to die?” The woman explained that these children are in so much pain that they want to know if death can release them from their pain. It was also a way for them to learn through the answer that “dying was okay.”

While the topic was really heavy, I came away from the reading enlightened and determined to get to the book and learn from it. Her writing has been described as exquisite, and it truly is. She is a master narrative journalist. I look forward to seeing how she braids the various narratives within the book. I also look forward to gathering wisdom and understanding and healing from her two very different experiences of loss and growth.

Velveteen, brocade, pearls, vintage pearls, and vintage Edwardian purse.

Velveteen, brocade, pearls, vintage pearls, and vintage Edwardian purse.

Blog housekeeping notes

When we did not move or speak, there was no proof that we were there at all.
– Marilynne Robinson, American novelist, from [one of my all-time favorite novels] Housekeeping

You can't beat a combination like electric pink and baby blue.

You can’t beat a combination like electric pink and baby blue.

I’ve been meaning to post a blog about technical issues, but I couldn’t muster up the enthusiasm to write about blog housekeeping. But it’s time to just do it and check it off my list.

First, good news: My blog post on The Pollination Project was noted in the press page on the foundation’s website in July. If you missed the post itself, click here to read about the wonderful things this foundation funds.

On August 21, Waterlily of Portland, Maine, also shared my blog post about their wonderful conscious trade boutique. On August 16th, Se Vende Imports shared the same blog post, which included my visit to their equally wonderful import boutique. If you missed that blog post, you can get to it here. It is one of my favorite posts that I have written thus far for The Dress at 50.

Second, as if you didn’t know, you can’t post a comment on my blog. For a brief while when I first launched my blog in December, people could comment, and then they couldn’t. I sought the help of a WordPress guru, who couldn’t find the root of the problem. We concluded that the best solution was to install an outside commenting app. Disqus worked marvelously for a month or two – and then friends told me they couldn’t comment. Forgotten passwords, passwords not being accepted, comments actually being accepted but they never got to me to be moderated and never made it on the blog, and so on. Overcome by frustration, they all gave up. I’m not sure why it’s not working for my site, but I have a solution to share.

Against a velveteen blouse: Lava 9 earrings and ring (Berkeley, CA), Anthropologie bangle, and a three-strand necklace by Israeli jewelry designer Ayala Bar (Contemporary Jewish Museum, San Francisco).

Against a velveteen blouse: Lava 9 earrings and ring (Berkeley, CA), Anthropologie bangle, and a three-strand necklace by Israeli jewelry designer Ayala Bar (Contemporary Jewish Museum, San Francisco).

I created a Facebook page in late spring, and while I don’t post every blog I write, I put up a fair number of them. So if you can’t post on the actual blog, you can post via Facebook. You can access my Facebook page here – or www.facebook.com/thedressat50.

That’s it for the housekeeping news – for now. Enjoy your Monday!

Throw in baby-blue and tortoise print matching readers....

Throw in baby-blue and tortoise print matching readers….